I miss you.......

      I've missed you for a long, long time. We've never been away from each other for this long.
      And now I'm going to miss you even more.
      Because now.......
      ....you are away.....
      .....forever.....
      You're never coming back.
      Except in my memories and reminisces.

      It's hard!

      It has taken this long for me to come to terms that I'll never get the chance to speak to you again.
      Or see your face in the flesh.
      Somehow, I still believe that you'll come back home when you're all done with your mission.
      That things will be back to the way it used to be.
      For the last few days I behaved like nothing happened.
      In this age of social networking, I couldn't find the courage to spread the news.
      I guess I was (and maybe still am) in denial.
   
      Today....I found a little strength to tell my friends.....
      ....that my little brother is gone.
      Gone for good.
      Gone forever.

      FOREVER....is a long, long, long time............

      Ya Allah, ampunkan segala dosanya.
      Lindungilah ia dari siksa kubur.
      Luaskanlah dan terangkanlah kuburnya.
      Lindungilah ia dari siksa neraka.
      Dan masukkanlah ia kedalam syurgaMu tanpa dihisab.

      Aamiin aamiin ya Rabbal 'alamin.....