Aku & Amanah

AKU & AMANAH

sesungguhnya aku ingin...
meniti dijalan sunnah
berteduh di dalam jemaah

tapi aku masih..
termangu mencari arah
mengubat hati bernanah

sesungguhnya aku ingin..
berjuang menegak kalimah
berjihad berkorban darah

tapi aku masih..
dibuai mimpi indah
terbaring bak insan lemah

sesungguhnya aku ingin..
taat menjunjung segala perintah
menggenggam tanggungjawab sebagai khalifah

tapi aku masih..
mengabdi nafsu serakah
menurut kehendak dunia yang parah

sesungguhnya aku ingin..
berpaut pada hidayah
menyingkap tabir makrifah

tapi aku masih..
ditipu akal yang mentah
lemas di lautan fitnah

namun hanya padaMu tempat ku berserah...

hilangkan dariku segala mazmumah
tunjukkan padaku jalan yang cerah
kurniakan padaku hati yang tabah
tetapkan diriku dalam syahadah
kekalkan nafasku dalam ibadah
hulurkan padaku tali istiqamah
pautkan untukku ikatan ukhuwah
hangatkan jiwaku dengan selimut mujahadah

kerana sesungguhnya aku terlalu ingin..

hujung nafasku husnul khatimah
kembali padamu dengan sakinah
bertemu kekasihMU didalam Jannah..


- HambaNya yang fakir -

                                                                                                                                                          Hafiz.

ups...and downs....

at times i feel like i'm drunk

gingerly putting one foot in front of the other

walking the line is often tough.....

eyes closed, head spinning

my mind a whirlpool

making sleep impossible!

and there are times when i feel i can fly

flapping my wings without feathers

floating gracefully in the sky

floating in the wind, floating in the wind.......

but what i really want, really really want

is to step firmly on this hallowed ground

yet feel like i'm floating, floating

high up in the sky........

of deaths & friendships...

Last night I went with a couple of friends to visit a friend whose mother passed on earlier in the afternoon. Another reminder at how fragile life is. You just DON'T know when your time is up. The three of us ended up at Satay Station later for a very late dinner. It was more of an excuse to touch base with our thoughts and feelings.

I absolutely love these friends of mine. I trust them. I KNOW they'll always prop me up and be my cheerleaders when I need cheerleaders to help me get on with life. THANK YOU guys....you know who you are  :)

I'M BLESSED!! Thank you ya Allah!

Nikmat

Nikmat

Mata yang melihat
mulut yang bercakap
akal yang sihat
tulang yang tegap
kaki yang menongkat
sempurna segala sifat

apakah belum cukup nikmat?
sampai begitu angkuh untuk taat
apakah bukan nikmat?
sehingga hati ditutup rapat


mari mengingat
sebelum ditarik rahmat


mari mengingat
sebelum nafas disekat

mari mengingat
sebelum ajal mendekat

mari mengingat
sebelum nesan mengambil tempat

maut tidak bersyarat
mustahil ditolak walau sesaat



.......:kufur nikmat..bunyinya berat...namun mudah "ter"buat... :)

 "Maka nikmat Tuhanmu yang manakah yang kamu dustakan?? " - diulang2 dalam surah Ar-Rahman -

TKC 77 - Kita Bertemu....

Dari remaja kita bersama

Ada yang karib, ada yang tidak

Kemudian berpisah.....lama....

Masing-masing melayan rentak

yang berbeza-beza...merata-rata...

Kini kita kembali bersatu

Masing-masing melepas rindu

Perangai dulu, perangai baru

Makin dimamah usia makin mesra

Dulu rakan, kini saudara

Yang dulu renggang kini akrab

Yang dulu akrab ada yang lesap

tidak mahu bersuara...bisu, senyap...

Kali ini kita bertemu lagi

Terasa sayu, ada yang sudah pergi

Pergi yang tak mungkin kembali lagi

Terasa pilu di hati ini...

Entah bila kita bisa begini lagi

Dalam suka masih ada sendu

kerana.....mana tahu....

mungkin ini kali akhir kita bertemu  :)

Looking forward to seeing you girls on Thursday....insyaallah xoxo

if we could beget stuff from dem fairytales.......

        Almost all of us grew up reading about Sleeping Beauty, Cinderella, The Frog Prince etc. Now, just imagine if we could get some of those magic "gadgets" or the service of fairy godmothers to make our wishes come true....or if we behaved like the characters of the heroes & heroines....

1. magic mirrors spewing platitudes like "you're the hottest/sexiest/prettiest/handsomest/hunkiest of them all would be a sell-out 
2. glass slippers would be cool to wear albeit a little fragile...and you'll get brands from Bata right up to Jimmy Choo
3. fairy godmothers would be busy conjuring up ballgowns for prom nights/award nights/annual dinners....
4. witches would be in demand for potions to put "competitors" to sleep
5. mice would be turned into Ferraris/Porches/Lamborghinis/BMWs/Mercedes or whatever wheels of the moment; they're handy to be turned into chauffeurs too!
6. magic carpets would get us to faraway places in no time
7. magic lamps would be pretty cool too...even if the genie only gives us 3 wishes
8. "grow tall/grow short" portions would be pretty handy...I mean, if we put on weight, all we need to do to look good is to just grow a little taller...and all will be well
9. noone would have to work if they got their hands on the goose which lay the golden egg
10. who would not wish to own a magic wand!
11. and girls would fall madly in love with beasts (emm...this has happened to a certain extent ;) )
12. girls would listen to their mums just like good Little Red Riding Hood...and they'll not fall into the clutches of big bad wolves...nor would they accept apples from strangers
13. childless couples would get thumb-sized little girls to care for
14. you would instantly know when someone is lying just by observing his nose
15. just chant "abracadabra" when you need to "create" something - like turn that lopsided cake into a beautiful gateau.......

RUKUNEGARA.....???

Kepercayaan Kepada Tuhan

Kesetiaan Kepada Raja Dan Negara

Keluhuran Perlembagaan

Kedaulatan Undang-undang

Kesopanan Dan Kesusilaan

       I have consumed loaves of Gardenia bread. Have been buying this since it was first introduced into our market. But it was only yesterday that I noticed that the Rukunegara is printed on its wrapper. Hmmm...goes to show how observant I am!!
        It got me thinking that almost everything that the Rukunegara embraces has eroded over the years. It was introduced when I was in primary school. I remember having to memorise it since we had to chant it during Monday morning assembly. The teachers probably explained it to us but it meant nothing to us then because everyone I knew had a religion albeit different, kings and sultans were just...well...kings and sultans and had no impact on our young lives, we didn't know anything about "perlembagaan" and "undang-undang" except for the ones enforced on us at home and at school, and most of us were polite and courteous to each other.
       We didn't have 1Malaysia. Instead we had "Muhibbah" - there was a song to go along with that:

Muhibbah Muhibbah

Itulah amalan kita semua

Muhibbah Muhibbah

Sejak sedari zaman purbakala

Tunaikanlah ikrar

Satu nusa satu bangsa merdeka

Satu loghat dan satu suara

Dalam Malaysia jaya

Junjung tinggi cita-cita bangsa

Hormatilah perlembagaanya

Marilah kita berganding tangan

Hapuskanlah jurang perbezaan

Muhibbah Muhibbah

Gema bersatu padu satu bangsa

Negarakan makmur bahagia

Dalam Malaysia jaya

If you remember this song then you're definitely my peer! Had to sing this at Monday morning assembly, too, aside from Negaraku and the Selangor state song (there was no Wilayah Persekutuan then). We sure did a lot of singing then it seems. And we were very "muhibbah". My closest friends were Yuhanis Yusoff, Bhajan Kaur and Cheah Yew Sim...definitely the epitome of "muhibbah". We also had civic lessons to further enforce the "kesopanan dan kesusilaan". We didn't define people by race. People were just people and there were those who were different from us in terms of culture etc but we were okay...no big deal. In fact, we couldn't tell the rich kids from the less privileged - it didn't bother us one whit anyway. Friends were friends and foes were foes...all very personal...it had nothing to do with family background, social status etc. Life was a lot simpler then. 

        Now religion (or lack off) is a big issue. Everyone's screaming at each other...those with faith of some sort, agnostics, atheists and variations of these. Everyone wants to be heard and almost noone wants to listen. Many scream insults at each other endlessly....sigh....Now we have racism. People just don't trust and respect each other much anymore. And they also don't trust the "keluhuran perlembagaan". People pooh-pooh the "kedaulatan undang-undang". "Kesetiaan Kepada Raja Dan Negara" is also passe by the look of things. And many agree that there is a serious lack of "kesopanan dan kesusilaan".....big sigh....

        No wonder our Malaysia is no longer "rukun"............