365 days more...in sya Allah.....

     It's the last day of 2012..... I hope to survive it.
     I hope to be able to have another 365 days more.
     I hope to be a better person...in every way.
     I hope to write more.
     I hope to speak less.
     I hope to read more.
     I hope mak will be back to her former, healthier, exuberant self.
     I hope my twin girls will safely deliver their babies.
     I hope my youngest will achieve her dreams.
     I hope for no unpleasant surprises.
     I hope for healthy, beautiful, brand new grandkids.
     I hope that all will be well for everyone I love.
   
     HAPPY 2013!
     May this be my, your, their best year ever!

Ada Apa Dengan Cinta

1.      Oleh: Rako Prijanto

Ketika tunas ini tumbuh

Serupa tubuh yang mengakar
Setiap nafas yang terhembus adalah kata
Angan, debur dan emosi
Bersatu dalam jubah terpautan
Tangan kita terikat
Lidah kita menyatu
Maka apa terucap adalah sabda pendita ratu
Ahh.. diluar itu pasir diluar itu debu
Hanya angin meniup saja
Lalu terbang hilang tak ada
Tapi kita tetap menari
Menari cuma kita yg tau
Jiwa ini tandu maka duduk saja
Maka akan kita bawa
Semua
Karena..
Kita..
Adalah..
SATU

2.      Oleh: Rako Prijanto

Kulari ke hutan kemudian menyanyiku
Kulari ke pantai kemudian teriakku
Sepi… sepi dan sendiri aku benci
Ingin bingar aku mau di pasar
Bosan aku dengan penat
Enyah saja engkau pekat
Seperti berjelaga jika kusendiri
Pecahkan saja gelasnya biar ramai
Biar mengaduh sampai gaduh
Ada malaikat menyulam jaring laba-laba belang ditembok keraton putih
Kenapa tak goyangkan saja loncengnya biar terdera
Atau aku harus lari ke hutan belok ke pantai

3.      Oleh: Rako Prijanto

Perempuan datang atas nama cinta
Bunda pergi karena cinta
Digenangi air racun jingga adalah wajahmu
Seperti bulan lelap tidur dihatimu
Yang berdinding kelam dan kedinginan
Ada apa dengannya
Meninggalkan hati untuk dicaci
Baru sekali ini aku melihat karya surga dalam mata seorang hawa
Ada apa dengan cinta
Tapi aku pasti akan kembali
Dalam satu purnama
Untuk mempertanyakan kembali cintanya
Bukan untuknya
Bukan untuk siapa
Tapi untukku
Karena aku ingin kamu
Itu saja

how i wish i could touch hearts this way :)

I realised.....

I haven't been online much in the last couple of months. Mum had a stroke so much of my time was [and still is] spent on being the 'night nurse' - although I've been granted leave for the past week due to work commitments.

This trying and traumatic time has made me realise:

1.   I can survive pretty well without the 'net'. It just didn't seem as important now as it was before.

2.   who, among those who missed me, actually made an effort to find out if I'm still alive and kicking ;)

3.   I can survive more than adequately on very little food and sleep.

4.   I can live without coffee for days...and not have withdrawal symptoms.

5.   that being in hospital made me smoke a LOT less as I'm too lazy to leave its compound.

6.   that being in an ambulance during an emergency brings on extreme anxiety.

7.   that ambulance drivers are really great drivers.

8.   that doctors DO care.

9.   that nurses are generally patient and caring.

10. that being in an air-conditioned room for 2 days and not showering gives me nosebleed.

11. that prayers are answered in the most amazing ways.

12. that mum is one determined lady even in ill health.

13. that I can cry at the drop of a hat.

14. that I am capable of putting my heart and soul into a 'doa'.

15. that I still appear calm and controlled even when I'm shaking inside.

16. that my younger brother and sister are my 'comrades'.

17. that my twin daughters are excellent nurses.

18. I know next to nothing about stroke and the after care for stroke victims.

19. I still get the jitters from the sound of ambulance sirens.

20. Gleneagles is a great hospital. So is Hospital Ampang.

21. the food at both hospitals are pretty yummy.

22. reciting 'rabbi yassir....' does get me good parking spots.

23. there is a need for courses on what to say and do when visiting gravely ill patients.

24. the formula that mum feeds on is yucky! A good thing she doesn't get to taste it!

25. one gets to learn many new skills - like changing bed linen without having to lift a person out of bed

26. mum does 'rebel' - albeit in a 'quiet' way ;)

27. it is possible to sleep on a straight-backed chair.

28. that I can ignore an untidy and un-vacuumed flat quite effortlessly [I still haven't cleaned it].

29. there are many generous, kind and caring people in this world.

30. what 'walking on air' means.

:)